I am no different than a good majority of brides, my close friends included, who have been planning their wedding (obsessively) since they were 5. Within 2 weeks of the engagement, all of my 6 bridesmaids had been told in person, (with cute "will you be my bridesmaid?" cards, of course.). Within that same time frame, I had chosen individual dresses for each of them within my very specific needs (6 different grey dresses with pockets). I wrote the budget, scoped wedding venues, caterers, ideas for Save The Dates... and I made a lot of decisions in a short amount of time. Everything was coming together SO well, and so quickly!
Fast forward to 2 months later and I am completely overwhelmed. Maybe it's the 24-7 exposure to 10 different but all equally impossibly creative wedding blogs. Maybe it's the constant questions from people that I feel like I should have answers for... I think more than anything it's the feeling that I NEED to know every last detail today. Last week I had my first minor meltdown after choosing what I thought was "THE dress" and then changing my mind after feeling some doubts. I vented a little to my amazing
MOH/sister and my good friend who had the most gloriously beautiful, perfect wedding a few years ago and they both put things into perspective. I took their words of wisdom and dusted myself off and picked myself up and took a deep breath. I remembered the whole point of the day that I know I'll inevitably spend the majority of the next 6 months planning. I get to marry the most perfect for me man that is out there and I get to do it surrounded by my friends and family. There will be lots of time for crafts and projects and tastings and invitation making. What I need to remember is that this process is supposed to be fun if it's meant to be anything at all. I'm sure there will be stress but it cannot take over my whole
existence.
I leave for Scottsdale for Giants Spring Training on Wednesday and I will leave behind my laptop, my impressive collection of donated bridal magazines, my checkoff lists, binders, notepads, pictures and any other wedding
paraphernalia and I will relax with a non wedding related book and enjoy myself with my soon to be husband.
